internecinus: deadly hindrances:a delay my frustrations and complications....

Wednesday, November 06, 2002

 
lost

put some headphones on and i'm lost. lost in the music of some song, lost in the soundtrack of some film, lost in the dialogue of some scene. i like this feeling. i like being lost. when i was a kid i would roam stores and drift aisles and aisles away from my parents and not feel any worry. id walk through the aisles of fedco and look at all the products, mesmerized by the cardboard and plastic packaging of products such as triaminic cold syrup or shampoo bottles. i always knew that id find my way back to my parents as they sat in the long lines, waiting for a cash register to open up.

even when i drive i like getting lost. although i might complain to the people i am with or the person who's gotten me lost, i really dont mind. the new buildings feed my eyes with various sights of beauty. from churches to high rises to hillside mansions, the canvas is endless.

currently i think i'm always lost. not that i'm a lost soul. i think i have that in tact. i think... id like to think i have this aire that i have it together and mostly i do. but sometimes i feel when people ask me questions, i'm shocked when i know the answer to it. i dont know why i feel this way. i just do.

what to do what to do i think i'll just wait and see how the path flows through...