internecinus: deadly
hindrances:a delay
my frustrations and complications....
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Sunday, September 22, 2002
insanity
to do this job again
means one thing
i'm insane.
i'm tired as fuck from decorating.
the resis move in, in a couple of hours
instead of sleeping last nite i was up thinking of programs
i'm getting those first time jitters
i still have to plan my house mtg agenda for tomorrow
and all the while school's gonna start on friday.
and of course i have class that day!!
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do u think i'm whining now?
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i'm insane
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but i love it...
posted by lainey at 8:25 AM
Thursday, September 19, 2002
be it as it may
there are many things that can occur in one day
in one hour, one month, one minute, one year
one second even can make the difference with a jeer or a leer
an once of an attitude is enough to set someone off
something as inexplicable as overlooking can make someone cross
each ounce of existence has the potential to do so much
the measurement from soberiety to lush
be careful, not fearful, of the consequences at hand
bc more often than not stupidy and inaction causes friends to disband
what difference does it make if u take my word?
who knows, not much , u may even think that i'm absurd
but who knows my advice just might save you, save me, save us?
and our friendship together won't have been a bust.
posted by lainey at 5:15 PM
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i walk into the sunset and wonder what i can achieve
i walk into the sunset and my eyes widen understanding what i believe
the new day brings forth a separation
from previous wrongs and aggravation
my fears and apprehensions dissapate
they no longer linger and dominate
its comforting looking into the deep unknown
sitting in the strange nicities of not knowing where to call home
no worries no doubts no uneasy feelings
those inexplicable tempermants have turned into foolish dealings
each moment in time is now appreciated for what its worth
being thankful for all, even my birth
what good is it to worry and create lines and frowns upon my face
when the glorious path before me reveals all this space
to grow, to learn, to quantify life
to seek, to cry, to understand strife
but then realize that life is what it is
and nothing can change the outcome of the choices you've made
even when all that is normal begins to fade
the beauty of it all is revealed through the seasons
for everything happens for a reason
posted by lainey at 3:26 AM
Monday, September 09, 2002
its been awhile...
so summer for me is now over, training starts in a bit which means that summer fun is put on hold until next june. its cool its been a wacky 3 months.
i've learned ....
that i'm old, that i'm proud of being who i am, that i have game...i'm just scared to use it at times, that things happen for a reason, that parents are simultaneously the most loving and annoying beings in the world, that friends are also the same, that you can get sucked into a drama that's not even yours, that boys can just be a girls friend, that there are a lot of perv's in this world, that cigarettes and caffiene are spectacular, that unfiltered cigarettes from the pinas are horrible!, that everything in life is copasetic if you just take a step back and take a gander at all the beautiful things/ people around you.
tis all
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